Ecdysis by Alice Foster
this is where you belong.
far from the hollow stomach of longing
and back into the light,
the light that has always been searching for you.
the light that gave you your name.
you will know it by the way it feels
against your skin:
whispered warmth searching like a mother
into every place that has been touched by neglect.
the light will run its fingers through your hair
and lift you from this withered shell.
do you remember what it is like?
to unfold your life
across your lap like linen
rinse off the scarlet stains
and dry yourself clean?
from the dimly lit room
i watch you rise from the bed
for the first time in weeks.
your frail body dripping with omens,
your movement like a cello being slowly plucked.
i pour you a glass of water and dress you in warm clothes.
the water barely touches your lips before becoming a pool on the floor
and you stare at me without expression, without language.
i want to lift you from beneath your arms
and whisper daylight into your mind and your chest and your stomach.
i want to give you a new body.
to watch you approach life like an animal,
hesitantly at first, before becoming familiar with its scent,
until one day it gives you some food
and a name
and a field to chase the birds
and a river to wash the ache.
the horizon is a glass house
i will break through
like an iron bird
watch as my feathers sift
into ash, my veins pumping ruby fire
through every strand of dna
is a word my mother made
when she sewed me into the sacred chamber
of her body
and whispered unending life
into my motionless being.
tonight i will not cower
before the voices of dying gods.
tonight i will burst into christ red flames
and wear the sun like a shroud.
Alice Foster is a 21 year old Pisces poet based in Portland, Oregon. She is studying yoga and spirituality in India and will be releasing her first chapbook, “The Other Side of Eternity” in 2020.